snow and ex-boyfriend

Today we had our first snow fall. It was amazing snow. The kind of snow that you see in a snowglobe. I wish it would snow like this all of the time but unfortunately where I live we are not as fortunate. About three weeks ago I received an email from an ex-boyfriend. Mind you he's an ex because he was one who broke up with me. I can't understand for the life of me than why would he want to meet me. For someone who easily gave up on our relationship, do they even have a right to request such a meeting? I was in so much pain when he broke up with me. I often wondered why even love someone when eventually the person you love will just break your heart. I was depressed for a year and 3 months. If he should ever email or call I must remember these things so that I will never ever forget how much he has hurted me. This way I will not go back to someone who easily broke up with me.

1. after he moved away, one month later he broke up with me and not before he cheated on me!
2. he said my eyes were so "dull" that I never look pretty or beautiful enough
3. he said I cried like his mother, and in his opinion his mother doesn't even love him so this is definitely not a compliment
4. we tried to be friends afterwards but he ruined that too by basically telling to me to stop calling him and let him go because he has now met someone new. Granted has only been on one date with this girl and we had already broken up. If he already let me go, what is the need the tell me to let go? I mean do you tell your friends to let you go because now you have found a new girlfriend or boyfriend? And he was the one calling me and not me calling him!
5. he finally admitted when he broke up with me that he was only with me out of convenience and not because he loved me. That was really sad to hear.

And after all of this he wants to meet me? Not only this but he is still with his girlfriend as well. What is the point? Do not let me forget the hell he has put me through and if he shall ever come back to say he wants us to start dating or be friends again, please do not let me forget this 5 things at least. There is so much more he has done to wrong me but these are the 5 that stand out. For example one other thing he has done was grab my stomach fat and said if only you lost this than everything would be fine. He had a big stomach too! Okay I am going to stop venting now.... But for all who know me........... DO NOT LET ME FORGET THIS TRAUMATIC AND PAINFUL PART OF MY LIFE!!

dating and marriage

Why is dating so hard? It used to be so simple. Like before two people would get together just because they like the same kind of movies or lived next door to each other. Nowadays, its like you have to fulfill a requirement for them to even notice you and then you have to keep up with the Jones in order for something to keep going. I hate dating and I realized I will never be good at it or have enough qualities to keep a relationship going. I don't know what it takes to make a relationship work but one thing I do know is I don't know how it works and why it doesn't work. I just like to keep everything simple but as all relationship goes, it gets more complex and confusing. I think I will just stick to being single. One last note: why is there so many people getting divorces? Why can't two people stay together for a long time anymore? Is there any hope left?

Working in today's economy...

I just quit my job last week. Why you ask... can you continue working for an organization you know is corrupt? or better yet doesn't even bother communicating with you at all the while telling everyone we, as an organization, are a team? I know he is taking money its just that no one with power wants to do anything about it. They just want the organization to go to the ground. Its a shame!